Kids Say the Craziest Things

Well, I told myself there would be no "New Year's Resolution's" this year because everyday should be filled with self improvement. However, a 4 year old has a way of making you change your mind. It intrigues me how they have no filter and its complete honesty. I have always struggled with the idea that I cannot completely be the wife that can do it all. I am just not physically, mentally, or emotionally able to manage. However, I have thought I have done a decent job at raising the kids as I do work and Sean works shift work. I have managed I guess is the best way to put it.

Jacob, 4 years old, saw me on the computer today. I was of course on Pinterest. No I am not a woman who looks at pinterest and puts herself down for all the things she cannot accomplish. I am content with the idea that I am not ever going to be Better Crocker. But, I do enjoy looking and pinning things that I may be able to try one day. After all, I am a teacher and have nice holiday breaks that allows some opportunity for hobbies. Anyways, Jacob asked, "What are you doing Momma?" I proceeded to tell him that I was searching for some new meal ideas. I know that I am lacking in the cooking field and its been an ongoing battle to cook more. I have a wonderful husband who has almost taken over this family duty. I don't mind that he likes doing it, but I know that my place as the wife is to provide for her family, including her husband. The conversation with Jacob took an unexpected turn. After his inquisition about my computer search and our short verbal exchange, he finishes our conversation by comparing me to Sean by saying, "You are going to start cooking more like Daddy?"

Wow, the things kids say really bring things into perspective. It is obvious that with me the kids see constant change and never stability with one thing and that is food. I have always prided myself on being the parent that provides a foundation and stability...man have I failed this one. FAILED! Ouch...that hurt. The words from a babe.

Since I said no "New Year's Resolution" I am going to call this a Reformation of Family. We are going to make some huge changes and it has nothing to do with a new calendar. It has to do with the realization that I am failing on a motherly duty....cooking. I was trying a challenge from the book, My So-Called Life as a Proverbs 31 Wife,  it consisted of being a better wife, but I think I am going to throw in my own swing to this challenge. I'm going to challenge my self a little more by adding in being a better wife and mother. Its not going to be about cooking, but more play time with the boys, more special things for them, more dinners for my husband when he's on nights, better at cooking breakfast, less process foods and more whole foods....wonder if I can manage all that I'm biting off here. We shall see.....Reformation of Family.

ref·or·ma·tion

/ˌrefərˈmāSHən/

Noun The action or process of reforming an institution or practice.